tied to?

lettered vitamins, 5htp, chocolate,
sex, caffeine wont shake
the feel
lost, wandering
blind by my own head
"where are you now my fingerprints?"
identity? ego? tied to?
who the fuck?
self doubt reigns the kingdom
when my soul suffocates
everything within screams
to birth
to vomit
to shit
to bleed
to create...create...create
lost without it
transform this into?
into you? into them?
into me?
lost, wandering, grasping
for the tiny sapling on
the hillside as I slide
scream for you to tell me
scream at my brain for silence
scream at my brain for silence
left alone
to go?