ordinary greatness

There is a part of me that wishes to be great, to be known, remembered, to be adored by millions. But I'm really just an average person with a pretty average life. I am coming to accept that. I think that I have potential to be great and so does everyone I know. I just don't necissarily have the desire or motivation to be extraordinary among my fellows or the world anymore. This does not mean I have no desires or motivation. It just means they are reasonable.  

The true desire is not about the money or the fame, therefore I don't need it on a large scale. It's about being understood and appreciated and that I can do on a much smaller level. In fact anyone can. There are billions of people in this world and to be genuinely understood and appreciated by a few of them is pretty cool, and probably not too difficult. I just have to do what I do and keep it real. That means small scale, that means honesty, that means respect and that means perseverance. I must let my creative juices flow from the place within me. I must do so in a way that honors myself as the human that I am. And I must never stop because it is what I do, whether I am great or not. I don't really have a choice.  

So as nice as it is to write a song or a blog or take a picture that people can relate to, understand or even love, it's more important that I can look at myself in the mirror and know that what I do is true for me. Then I can go forth with my own personal greatness. Comfortable and confident in the fact that what I have to offer is exactly that...what I have to offer. It's not what anyone else has to offer and it is not what everyone else will relate to or need. But hopefully someone will relate and somehow be helped by my own personal, ordinary brand of Carrie greatness. And that is worth much more than what money or fame can give me.